- がっかりしたから -

今回も、がっかりしたから。

キセキは、ありますか。もう信じられない。嘘みたいだったよ！

最初は、すぐに立ち直るだと思うけど、やっぱりできなかったさ。昔のこと、本当に『さようなら』に言えますか。自信がないわよ。全部の思い出いつも思い出しました。いつかはっきり分かれるかなぁ…

わけにはいかない。

ふとしたあいつのことを探してしまったんだ。読んだら、気持ちが悪くてになって、苦しかったよ。実はいつも辛いだよね。あたしはもっと注意すべきだった。

この哀話もう一度始まりました…

- 寝られない! -

さあぁ…あたし、考え過ぎだよね。悪いことだと思うか？

今疲れたけど、寝られない！！！！どうして！色々のことを考えてる。めんどくさいなぁ…

- 知足 -

怎么去拥有一道彩虹

怎么去拥抱一夏天的风

天上的星星笑地上的人

总是不能懂不能知道足够

如果我爱上你的笑容

要怎么收藏要怎么拥有

如果你快乐不是为我

会不会放手其实才是拥有

当一阵风吹来风筝飞上天空

为了你而祈祷而祝福而感动

终于你身影消失在人海尽头

才发现笑着哭最痛

那天你和我那个山丘

那样的唱着那一年的歌

那样的回忆那么足够

足够我天天都品尝着寂寞

才发现笑着哭最痛

如果你快乐再不是为我

知足的快乐叫我忍受心痛

怎么这首歌越听越痛

怎么学会知足的道理而还会痛

- 黒いと白い -

Today GrandpaBer and PapaMark walked past me today. As usual, we will exchange greetings. And this was how our conversation went.

All: Hi!

GrandpaBer: (stops in his tracks and stares at me) Oh my gosh Grace. You're not in black and white today!!

PapaMark: Yea!

Grace: Errr yea..

GrandpaBer: And you're in pink!!

Grace: Haha yea! Today's Monday so i wanted to shock all of you.

PapaMark: Shock, you did.

GrandpaBer: Look so 'shu nu' today.

Grace: What today! It's everyday k! (Smacks him on the arm)

PapaMark: Oh gosh, that is totally not 'shu nu' k.

Grace: Aww that was just a gentle pat.

GrandpaBer: YEAA right.

PapaMark: *laughs*

[My phone rings]

Grace: Gtg! See you guys tmr!

GrandpaBer: Have fun on your hot date!

PapaMark: *still laughing*

-_-"'

HAHAHA. I will totally miss these guys when we move! Grandpa Ber and Nette is forever complaining i'm in black, white or grey! Hahaha. Even HappyPill! Pouts. I have lots of colourful clothes! But somehow I don't know why people only see my blacks, whites and greys! HAHAHA ok I admit. Even my mum complains. When the clothes are all hung up, my wardrobe is like..a sea of blacks, whites and greys with occasional colours around. But I do have alot of other colours! Just that these 3 colours are overpowering the rest. It's a relative thing. HAHAHA!

A sense of trepidation with regards to tmr ^^ Hope it's fun!

- コンサート -

One of NicholasTeo's songs came on and I suddenly remembered about the concert I attended with GH and WQ last week. Hahaha! Yea, I know. I went to a concert that was full of screaming girls with 2 guys. 2 very stoic guys -.- HAHAHA It was an impromptu thing. I didn't plan to go for it but was invited to it barely 3 hours before the concert??? Pity Yt didn't join us though, I would be able to ask her if she shared my view.

As I was staring at the large screen, the first thought that came to mind was like "Oh my goodness, how come he looks so much like Alvin?!" Throughout the whole time, it felt like I was staring at Alvin. HAHAHAHA. Gosh. I think it's the hair and the eyes. Really look alike!!!!!!

Ok, so I just googled for NicTeo's pictures and don't see the resemblance but REALLY!!! They really looked alike when I saw him on the big screen that night!!! ARGHHH! Pity Yt wasn't there!!! At least there would be someone else whom I can ask if my eyes were playing tricks on me!!! Freaky!

- 最近 -

As much as I dislike waking up early, especially on weekends, a lot seems to be done when I actually do. I have done so much, came back home and it's only noon! Hahaha!

Hmmm. Met up with quite a few people whom I haven't met in quite a while. General idea of comments that I got is that I have changed. I have no idea if it is for good or bad, but I agree, I have changed.

Especially more evident to people whom I haven't met in a long while I guess. Imagine, even Twinnie said so.

While I know I have changed, I don't deny the fact that people said that I've changed doesn't disturb me. I like the Old Me, I guess, but some things just got to change.

It's hard not to change given the present circumstance and past experiences. Having entered the working world was a step out of the initial protected and comfort zone. This new territory is still strangely foreign though more comfortable then when I first entered. It made me more wary of people around me, I would say. It showed me that people were very different. The ugly side of human nature was..exposed..and I didn't like what I saw.

Everyday, I come in to contact with new people and I was pretty perturbed by this particular someone whom I just got acquainted with. I knew him for barely 1 hour and there he was going on and on about how he wants to climb the corporate ladder at a seemingly unrealistic speed. And he was on the same topic for the whole night. Yes, applause for your drive and determination with a clear goal in mind. Okay, it might not be completely unrealistic but..fair enough, I'm in no position to comment. It was rather discomforting to see people plan each move and to talk to people whom they think will have decision over their promotion or "visibility". Each action is almost concerted -.- Scary, isn't it.

So in this world, I have learnt to protect myself. Okayy, i'm still learning to protect myself. I don't think there's this 100% impenetrable armor especially for areas beyond the skin and flesh. (Think psychological warfare) People protect themselves using different ways to prevent themselves from getting hurt or limiting the level of hurt and damage to the minimal. For example, to protect themselves from letting people know their low self esteem or inferior complex, some people tend to scold or run others down. Some pretend to be weak when they are actually very strong inside, to gain the trust of people whom they want to gain. Some people are afraid of knowing what they really feel inside, and convince themselves and others of a certain emotion. Some people act the opposite of what they really are so that people can't predict or get close enough to them to hurt them. Some just build a wall around them by not talking. Ok, I think you get my drift.

Everyone has different defence mechanisms, think about it, what's yours?

- Grace's Happy Pill -

She is Grace's Happy Pill ^-^

Can you guess who she is?

Disclaimer: This is definitely NOT the author and was kindly sent by Happy Pill herself.

She makes Grace laugh all the time. She's there to listen to Grace whine and sulk and listen to all her lame jokes.

What will Grace do without her?

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EDIT: Happy Pill claims she looks cuter on this blog than when it's posted elsewhere ^-^

-放っておいていいわよ-

もしできなかったら、守りたいのこと言わないでください。

- もう一度行こう -

Journey began at 730am. It is even earlier than working days -.- Despite all my whining, I still managed to pull myself out of bed, threw on some clothes and met them. Thank God GH drives. If not, I'll probably not agree to pull myself out of the comforts of my bed so early in the morning. ROFL. Yes, I'm a spoiled brat.

The blue hues of the skies were so lovely and calming. If I was in a more reflective mood, I would have just laid there on the grass and stared up at the skies. ROFL. Maybe I should do that in the night. Should be able to see some lovely twinkling stars. SIGH.

I think 50% of the photos today were of the skies. I love the sky when I knock off from work on time. HAHAH. Especially on the bus-ride home. Pity I don't have a camera phone though. The hues are absolutely lovely. Soaking in the beauty might make a person more beautiful too. ROFL.

Oh yes, we went kite-flying too. A mother asked her cute little daughter to play with me. ROFL. Bad choice. Because I absolutely have no idea how to fly a kite. I just stand there and hold the string. HAHAHAHA. But the girl was really very cute! I was trying to take a photo of her surreptitiously but I ended up getting so enthralled by her that I didn't take a nice photo in the end.

When there was no more wind...we started...taking pictures...

My infamous jumping shots. Teehee ^^;;

He likes the dinosaurs. Hahaha.

- Wheeee~~~!! -

Woohoo~ Here's the start of the long weekend. Ever since I received that email in June, I've been counting down to 6Aug and YAYYY!! It's over! ^-^ And thank God for the fine weather and thank you for your prayers!

Went to Max for supper yesterday kindly treated by G. ARGH. Chocolate overdose ^^;;

I need to get last night's pics from Ian! So exciting~!

HAHAH. Jumping pics with the designs that had the 2Gs holed up in the Graphics Room for countless days and hours.

Both Gs enjoyed the tiresome process very much despite everything.

Thinking back, it wasn't all that tough at all. Not bragging, it was all manageable though I probably was this - close - to losing my temper very badly alot of times. As for the other times, hahah well, I lost it and said things I shouldn't have but oh well..I would have exploded at this particular someone who was really testing my patience..real thin. But really, the partner makes all the difference ^-^

The people were generally nice. GOSH. There was once we were in the store getting some stuff and it was really late already. AND this Ponyo tricked me into walking very far in ALONE and switched off the lights!! I freaked out. HAHAHAHA. First reaction..well..haha..was to scream. AND I RAN to the entrance only to find G and Ponyo laughing. Btw, it's really pitch dark in the store. You can't even see your hand in front of you. And because you can't leave the door open, basically I have this fear of getting locked in because the door is always closed. To make matters worse, there's no reception in the store.

The first time I went to the store, Mel was very nice. He asked me to stand by the entrance and not walk in. But Ponyo was terrible. Every time we go in to the store together... -.-...it's like going through Fright Night all over again.

HAHAHA. Looking back, all these silly little incidents were what made it memorable and fun :) We'll sit down, talk about it and laugh at it all over again. Hahaha.

- 雨 -

Please help to pray for fair and good weather this Friday, 6August 2010.

お願いします。

- Aftershock -

The show might move a little slowly but it manages to capture the emotional struggles, the trauma, as well as the regret of each decision made. How just 3 words remains a shadow in another's life. How one's life changes drastically overnight. How unpredictable and transient life is.

Definitely worth watching.